Impian & Harapan

Last Sunday, terpampang kat front page The Star "Kitty for Kindies"...DPM announced ada budget RM48million utk private kindies dlm bentuk geran, loan...

Teringin nak apply tp selalunya yg baru nak start akan dpt. Selalunya takde harapan for kindy like mine yg dah in operation for 4 years...

So, agak terperanjat bila i dah bersiap-siap nak balik on Monday, a man dropped by, introduce himself as someone from Kementerian Pendidikan. He asked me to fill in a blue form yg tertulis perkataan "...Geran". He asked me to furnish permit from Jab Pendidikan, Bomba, Majlis Daerah, CCM...to which I obliged & dia pun isi borang yg sgt tebal. He asked me many questions...

Then, he told me that borang2 tu semua utk permohonan geran yg DPM announced. According to him, dia org dah bergerak, DPM je yg baru buat formal announcement. Kat my area less than 5 kindies yg berdaftar yg he has to pay a visit.

He asked me about my previous working experiences. Bila bg tau lawyer, he started asking many questions & of course dimulakan dgn soalan yg boleh dijangkakan "Kenapa.....?"..I told him my reasons...

When I told him that I have to pay between RM2,500 - 4,000 every mth to the Franchisor, he asked me, "kenapa tak buat sendiri?"...sembang lagi & at the end of the meeting, he said that dia akan retire in 4 years time & he hopes to see my name not as franchisee but as a franchisor...Its good to know that someone believes in you...

I told him that I have big dreams but the only stumbling block is capital...

He told me that his job is only to gather infos but the decision lies with the committee. I dont give much hope but pray to Allah, hoping for the best.

This morning I was extremely exhausted. One of my 5 year old students tantrum pulak hari ni. Dia tak pernah buat hal; always reach school around 7am, ayah hantar. Today, his father had to rush to work & Mom had to send him. Change in routine sometimes can upset a child. He cried sekuat2 hati, guling2 badan, lari keluar sekolah...letih kejar him & carried him...dia meronta sekuat hati; baling semua bende yg ada depan mata...quite a scene. Neighbour yg depan my kindy, as usual akan tengok2, as if there's sth wrong with my school sampai budak tu meraung sekuat hati.

Bila dah penat sgt berlari kejar dia, & sakit2 bdn bila dia meronta, we just let him buat apa dia nak as long as he was still in the school compound, lagilah neighbour tu dok pdg2 as if we couldnt be bothered to pujuk the child.

Bila tangisan reda sikit, I slowly led the child to his classroom, asked him to rest coz tau mmg dia penat, he obliged. Its just a matter of time before the child himself joined his classmates as if takde apa yg berlaku.

All children dah settle down...but once in a blue moon akan ada mcm ni...normally because tak cukup tidur/ sth happen at home which upset them...I akan frustrated, exhausted kalau ada yg tantrum pagi2 coz instead of ajar other children membaca, I have to focus on 1 child...

So, it was quite a relief when someone from Jabatan Pendidikan Selangor called, inform me that they have recommended my kindy for the grant to the committee...According to that person because of my number of students agak menggalakkan.

I dont put much hope knowing that there are thousands of private kindies in Malaysia. Still I pray to Allah, semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan & dimurahkan rezeki...